Why why why why why…
How is it that a week can go by in the blink of an eye? Last Sunday this time I was at Lauren’s, having a lovely time, full of delicious food and relaxing like there was no tomorrow. But it’s tomorrow. And unfortunately, I must go back to real life. Which means class and unfinished papers and horrible midterm grades and no money and blahhhhh. I’m not a happy puppy. Not to mention that its supposed to rain tomorrow (today) and Tuesday, which is going to make me miserable after all this beautiful weather. Yuck yuck yucky. I have so much crap to deal with that I DON’T want to deal with at all. I hate feeling like this, not feeling motivated at all, wanting to sleep most of the day and be up all night obsessing about random things. I so envy people who are able to suck it up and do really good work and be productive. But I’m not one them, and I feel awful. I would say I want it to be summer, but that means finding a job and being productive, even though I want it to mean sleeping all day and hanging out with my friends. But that’s not going to happen either. Lyndsay and I were just planning all of the wonderful things I could do for my birthday, but of course those wonderful things involve wonderful wads of cash that I don’t have right now. Annnd it’s two in the morning. And I haven’t done anything for that essay draft that’s due Tuesday. Just like I knew I wouldn’t. And I have to go to Charlotte on Tuesday night. And when am I going to work on my draft that’s due Thursday? And when am I going to get a summer job? And when is my tuition going to get paid? And when am I going to read Cymbeline and learn the monologue and make it look like I haven’t saved it for the last minute? And when am I going to have another audition? And when am I going to have friends and places to go at night and things to look forward to instead of sitting alone in my bed watching British talk shows on YouTube?
I need to go to bed.
